Wyoming to South Dakota.

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

God can You hear Me?

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

There are all of these dreams that have been tugging on my heart lately Father, and I'm not sure how:

Music and singing 
Pine Ridge Reservaion 
And my drive to help veterans and Native Americans


All tie together? 

But I will trust that you know what is best for me Father. That you know how these things on my heart will come together. 

Jesus you are the way, the truth, and the light. 

I'll follow you. 

Finding the Courage to Burn my Ships.

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

Currently I have been spending the last two weeks in Cheyenne, Wyoming visiting my Momma and my sister as they embark on their new adventure. My Momma moved over a thousand miles for a job. She packed what she could and drove away in a motor home to follow her operating room managerial dreams. She didn't need a plan, she just jumped in feet first and waved goodbye to her Bend, Oregon home.

That's brave. 

Which I can now say that kind of bravery, has inspired my own kind of bravery. You see, I visited the Cheyenne VA Hospital about a week ago. 

And it was there I saw veterans. 
Men who had risked so much for you and me, needing help. 

Desperately needing help. 

So I felt this God given calling. 
To find a way to use the nursing skills that I will develop in the next three years to serve these men who served me. 


I also learned that after taking a road trip to Hill City, South Dakota that I want to also work on a reservation sometime in my life. But not just any reservation. 

I want to work at Pine Ridge. 

The third poorest county in the United States. 

(The first and second are also reservations in South Dakota.) 

These are big goals that require a lot of faith and trust in God to lead me. 

"But I trust him and I'm burning my ships like the Spaniards who sailed to Mexico in 1519, who when they landed and in the midst of their hardships wished that they could go back. But instead they chose to burn their ships and stay there forever. And figure out what that life would hold."

(And a big thanks to Annie F. Downs for showing me that I too could be brave and burn my ships)

She Says "I'm Okay."

Sunday, July 27, 2014

After completing my TEA's nursing exams a few months ago, I decided I want to go to Ireland to celebrate.

Don't ask me why that was the place I chose, it just was.
Then the other night after watching the movie "Winter's Tale" the thought crossed my mind again like a giant neon sign.


That night I looked up tickets seriously contemplating buying one right then and there for next summer.

I didn't.

Then today after church, I went to Barnes & Noble to read.
I picked up a copy of C.S. Lewis's book The Four Loves, and two Ireland travel books to look through out of curiosity.

Then you'll never guess what happened next:

A couple from Belfast Ireland passed by my table, saw my books, and began to tell me everything I needed to know about traveling to Ireland.

(Did you know C.S. Lewis is from Belfast, Ireland? Me either.)

If all of this is not some sign or form of divine intervention, I don't know what is?

But I do know:

I am going to go to Ireland next summer.
Let the saving begin now.

Letting Go.

Saturday, July 12, 2014

Some will tell you that "true love" is never giving up on someone you're in love with. However lately I've come to learn that "moving on" doesn't mean you never loved someone. it just means that sometimes you have to let go because God has bigger plans for you both than you know. Plans that will lead you both to grow and become closer to the people you were meant to be. 

Letting go is the hardest thing I've ever had to do, but it's the most "real love" I've ever experienced. 


You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world...but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices.

John Green

"But I love him.”
“So love him.” “But I miss him.” “So miss him. Send him some love and light every time you think about him, then drop it."

Elizabeth Gilbert

Dolce Far Niente.

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

I want to learn Italian. 
I want to be Italian. 
I want to refer to 'my boyfriend' as 'mio ragazzo.'
I want to nickname my cellphone 'mio telefonino' as Elizabeth Gilbert did in "Eat. Pray. Love."
But I can't. 
Because my phone is a brick. 
It might as well be a laptop.
Grande telephono. 
I mean I am already an Italian bartender. 
Barista at your service.  
Ti amo. 
(I love you)
Sei bellissima.
(You're beautiful) 
(Kiss me)
Dormire con me stasera. 
(Sleep with me tonight)

Sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of stupid courage. 

I'm Alive.

Friday, January 31, 2014

Life Sounds like...
im alive.

Loving on Purpose.

Thursday, January 30, 2014

Loving on Purpose.

"He showed up in the midst of our brokenness with compassion and healing shocking everyone by how fearless He was about keeping His love on with sinners. Jesus didn't create distance with broken people; He created connection."

"If your "love" isn't producing things like safety, peace, and trust in your relationships it probably shouldn't be called love."

"I will not make assumptions about what is going on inside you."

"The way you communicate value for a relationship is in the way you protect the connection."

"Can I propose something? The real sign that you are in a relationship with Jesus is that you love people. Period." 

"We've come to think that vulnerability is where we get judged and rejected instead of loved and accepted, so there is a war to keep us from being vulnerable. Acceptance is huge."


"You are a completely different person than I am. But you get to be you and I get to be me in this relationship."

Love on Purpose. 

New Years Resolutions and Stuff.

Monday, January 6, 2014

1. Create a Budget. 
No seriously. This is a big one. 
Until May all that I will be buying is: 
(college girl problems)

2. Eat Clean and Workout 5-6 times a week. 
One cheat meal. 
Lift heavier. 
Run faster.

3. Successfully accomplish 5 whole pull ups. 
By myself. 

4. Write a love letter every month and leave it somewhere for someone to find. 
Hannah Brencher is my idol.

5. Read the entire bible.
3 Chapters a day.  

6. Write more. 
I miss poetry and song lyrics and diary entries. 

7. Sing more. 
This last year I let go of this. 
And I realized...
Without it a part of me is missing. 

8. Forgive more, love more, do more, forget more, regret less.

A Prayer Request.

Friday, January 3, 2014

Pray for my brother.

He got his second DUII this last November and will be going to court on Monday January 6, 2014.

Pray that my parents would be blessed financially.

That they would be able to pay off all of their debt and be able to have a Christmas tree again.

Pray for my Father.

That his heart might be softened and that he might be able to see God in his life.

Pray for the homeless and the heart broken that we meet on the street everyday.

Pray for your enemies and the people who repeatedly try to tear you down.

Pray for the world and for the power to be able to bring peace and joy even if it's just to your own community.


Just pray.

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