Just thankful.

Thursday, December 31, 2015

2015. Looking back.

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

This year was probably one of the most difficult yet rewarding years of my young adult life. 

At the beginning of this year I was living in Klamath Falls just starting winter term of my first year of nursing school. 
I was voted in as our chapters Student Nurses Association President. 
I attended the National Student Nurse Association Conference in Portland. 
I learned how to roll sushi and egg rolls, grow wheat grass, juice vegetables, and make shrub with my best friend. 
I participated in OIT's astronomy club and learned more about the stars, moon, and planets than I'd ever learned before. 
I looked through a celestron telescope. 
I attended Kava ceremonies, Hawaiian luaus, International dinners, and Jewish weddings. 
I moved from Klamath Falls to Medford to be closer to my love during his externship. 
I found an apartment at a complex where there was a no vacancy sign hanging on the door. 
I found a job that works with my school schedule. 
By the grace and provision of God I paid off debts that had gone to collections and have managed to make enough money to pay all of my bills on time each month. 
I performed and sang at various events and even was brave enough to sing my own songs at the Southern Oregon Songwriters Association open mic twice. 
I saw two concerts at Britt. 
I saw Count of Monte Cristo at the Shakespeare festival and took a  jet boat ride down the rogue river. 
Ate the best sushi of my life. 
Explored Portland twice with my love. 
Survived the hardest term of my nursing school career. 
I found out how loved I am and how grateful I am that God brought in such lovely people into my life. 

I learned how to trust and not worry (as much). 


Tuesday, December 29, 2015

2016 is for contenment and enjoying the moment. 
2016 is for loving Ryken more and more everyday. 
2016 is for being more environmentally friendly.
2016 will be the year I do a full pull up by myself. 
2016 is for finishing my second year of nursing school. 
2016 is for healthy living. 
2016 is for working as if working for the Lord. Not men. 
2016 is for minimalism and only buying what I need. 
2016 is for praying and war rooms. 
2016 is for growing out my hair. 
2016 is for stretching and movement.
2016 is for drinking lots of water. 
2016 is for writing and writing some more. 
2016 is for adventure. 
2016 is for putting the phone down and connecting. 
2016 is for dreaming bigger. 
2016 is for Nancy Ray's book club reading. 
2016 is for baking, cooking, and creating a cook book of our favorite recipes.
2016 is for chasing hard after God and learning what it means to be a cheerful giver. 
2016 is for writing and lots of music. 


Wednesday, December 9, 2015

If I'm being honest, life is hard.
But it's also wonderful, and strange, and ugly, and beautiful.
It'll make you incandescently happy one day, and the next leave you gasping for air.
Just. Trying. To. Hold. On.

I'm in a season of my life where I am being tested, and pushed, and pulled, and dragged through the growing changes of my life. I am being asked to be a better sister. aunt. daughter. girlfriend. nurse. 

I am being asked to step up to the plate and give my best shot, even on days I don't quite... feel like it.

 I'm learning that feelings come and go and they come on as quickly as they pass. Old hurts heal. Broken hearts are made new. The people who are supposed to be there for you... Show up. And stay.

The people who help you succeed aren't always your flesh and blood. Sometimes it's teachers. Sometimes it's friends. Sometimes it's relationships kindled over giggles and coffee.

Hard work is necessary. Long days are required. Saving every penny is a necessity.

But if I'm being honest, none of this would have been made possible without Him.

The anchor of my soul. My guiding ship. My rock.

He's forgiven me more times than I can count, and He continues to not lose faith in me, even on days I lose faith in myself.

He's given me a love that is better and brighter than I could have ever dreamed.
He's provided for me monthly and has met all my needs. Financial and other wise.
He has given me the strength to continue on days I'd much rather say forget it.

I love Him. I'm not afraid to say it.

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